Hey y’know - I can do this 
It works for me - you do your work and papers and I’ll work right along with you or do my own stuff. I do appreciate that you let me be there - even if I’m not there.
Though of course if you start whining about that again, I’ll go stuff these optimistic words down this throat scratchy from all those hopeful words I had to eat.
But well, hope springs eternal. Like flowers.
I heard it again. Tracy Chapman sure has a way of jolting me out of my early morning drowsiness.
And I could even smell the flowers
And then reality and cheese called and I had to go rushing off. Hehe.
I was frowning my life away and there I saw it:
Sunshine
Someone tagged me ’sunshine’. Now all is good in the world again.
". . . i’ll answer that . . . "
So what’s next for me then? It’s setting your sweet candy words to reality.
Sugar rush.
(",)
At this point, I don’t care if we’ve deja’d this vu so many times over the years.
Ok, I’ll stop smiling now.
(",)
Unsent
- Alanis Morissette
dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you’re in a relationship
with someone right now and I respect
that I would like you to know that if you’re ever single
in the future and you want to come visit me in california
I would be open to spending time with you and finding
out how old you were when you wrote your first song
dear jonathan I liked you too much I used to be attracted to boys
who would lie to me and think solely about themselves and you
were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time I used to say
the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think of the early 90’s
your face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday
dear terrance I love you muchly you’ve been nothing
but open hearted and emotionally available and supportive
and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in
and pushing you away I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep
on your couch and cry in front of you for the first time you
were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself what
was wrong with me
dear marcus you rocked my world you had a charismatic way
about you with the women and you got me
seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn’t let me get away
with kicking my own ass but I could never really feel relaxed and looked out
for around you though and that stopped us from going any further
than we did and it’s kinda too bad becasue we could’ve had much more fun
dear lou we learned so much I realize we won’t be able to talk for some time
and I understand that as I do you
the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could
we were together during a very tumultuous time
in our lives I will always have your back and be curious about you
about your career about your whereabouts
Unsaid
Tracy Chapman’s Fast Car
Four years after and my heart still skips a beat hearing it. Four years ago, that was when it suddenly occurred to me that hey, maybe we do have something. Maybe. And there we were - just cruising in comfortable silence.
You probably don’t remember - I think too much, right? Well, I do. And it makes me smile.
If only for that, I’ll smile.
