Getting up, growing up, and moving on
From an old letter to one of the people in my old mailing list (circa 2002)
On geetting up, growing up, and moving on
That’s okie. I guess I can understand that. It’s healthy to be
angry, because suppressing your anger over what happened is like
denying that you have been wronged. And that makes things worse
since you would be blaming yourself thus making it even harder to
move on. And move on you must *in Yoda voice*. It is difficult to
get past such a pain. It hurts to think about it, to even just
realize that you’re breathing the same air that she is breathing. It
hurts just being alive. But beyond that pain is that beauty in life
you can see only through eyes that have been washed clean with the
tears. It’s been 2 years for me as well. The anger and the pain are
still there, but it doesn’t rule my life anymore. I used to hate my
ex with such a bitterness that it drained me, because I was also
hating myself and life as well. But that’s wrong. Life is too
beautiful to be spent in the darkness of anger. That’s why I started
getting into new and different things. Not only does it take my mind
off the pain, it also helps me discover more of myself, and more
about myself to love. So even if I don’t have that specific someone
to love me, I know that I am totally devoid of being loved. Maybe it
could work for you too. Try a new thing everyday, see things in a
different perspective. Who knows, that might be more effective than
basketball.
~ Giselle <- feeling really good about herself cause she just
mastered putting up her hair using a chopstick. *~_~*
