anGelTears Heaven

Nice to Meet You Anyway
- Gavin Degraw

I don’t want to get too close
I don’t want to get too close
You see this isn’t where my head is
If you knew me I’m not like this
But I just found someone special
And that’s really something special
If you knew me
Nice to meet you anyway
I believe you’re very fine
Still I haven’t got the time
Cause I just found someone special
And that’s really something special
If you knew me
Nice to meet you anyway
And the sky opened up
With the soil of the sun
Dreaming of my true love
I don’t mean to be so strange
But my life just took a change
Cause I just found someone special
And that’s really something special
If you knew me
Nice to meet you anyway
And the sky opened up
With the soil of the sun
Dreaming of my true love
So before this goes too far
Let me tell you what you are
You’re amazing, I’m attracted
But I’m terribly distracted
And I’m trying to be verbal
And I’m back into this circle
Cause I just found someone special
And that’s really something special
If you knew me
Nice to meet you
Nice to meet you
Nice to meet you anyway
Nice to meet you anyway
Nice to meet you anyway
Nice to meet you anyway
Nice to meet you anyway

Knowing there’d be a guy like this out there”d be enough to make me happy. 

An interesting run on a conversation I was having about this song:

Me:  I heard a really nice song earlier today.

Christopher:  What’s it about?

(after reading through the song)

Christopher:  nice song. . . so you wish someone would sing that for you, not to you?

Me:  X_X

But on a sweet note, he went on to add:

Christopher:  I’m sure someone will.

See how much difference a word, or two, or four, can make? (",)

(those in touch would figure this one out too hehe).

I was very worried too - and that’s even with the knowledge that I don’t have to go through having mumps again.

What in the world am I going to do with you?  Oh if only I could, would, should. . .

Can you tell I have a lot of guilt to go around?

Get well soon.

Now that would be more fitting (those close to us, or smart enough would figure out why).

Sorry, I just realized that I never managed to push through with taking you out for your birthday - and your 18th at that.  I’ve been feeling so guilty about that, honestly.  I’ll try to make up for that.  But in the meantime that I’m still scrambling to fix up things. . .

let’s chomp on Cyutot!  Hehe.

P.S.  But I seriously have been feeling guilty.  And yes, I’ve been meaning and planning to do so.  Honest.

He didn’t sulk - at all - and that’s with the fact that we had long been anticipating and preparing for that event.  He himself volunteered to forego the convention so my mom and I could rest.  And it didn’t stop him from finding other ways to immensely enjoy our day together.

Such a sweet, mature little boy - and all at supposedly-tumultuous 16.  I’m proud of my birthday boy brother.  He’s a pretty good picture of how I’d like my guy to to be.  Oh wait, I think that could be because I basically raised him too.  Oh well :p  Still.

Happy Birthday Pat!

" The difference between ordinary and extraordinary is that little extra. "

- Waiting (Ryan Reynolds, Justin Long, Ana Faris, Luis Guzman, etc)

A little extra for my Sunday:

• getting my nails clipped for me and conserving a lot of blood in the process
• being accompanied to scope out a prospective ‘tweener site, smelly goats and all
• doing groceries for and with me
• having a home-cooked meal voluntarily and lovingly served up especially for you.

The last makes me think I really just might be one of the guys.

Why?

(",)

I don’t wear my heart on my sleeves anymore, I’ve decided to keep it out of sight - but I can’t go about life as if I don’t have one.

She turns into a mean, nasty-tempered incoherent snark ball that only a mother could love.

I am so thankful mine can - or still can.

" How could you be so cold? "

" What do you want me to do, cry too? "

A few minutes down the road I encounter this:

Don’t cry for a guy who won’t cry over you. 

" But you told me before that you wanted to be there for me, to hold me especially when I’m sad and hurting - even when you happen to be the cause? "

" I don’t know anymore. "

"But I believed you - you desperately wanted me to believe you. . . "

"I just don’t know. "

You promised me that it would be better. . . now I just know better.

I wasn’t pushing you away.  I wasn’t pointing an accusing finger at you - I was holding out my hand in the desperate you’d take it and see me through. . .

"

Can’t you see I like you by the way I push you away?"

-

I also realized that it is when I need it the most that I can’t hope to be held until the frightened struggling ceases. . . No such understanding for me.  I can only be loved if and when I’m the ever-cheery ‘good girl’ - if I ever get that lucky.

Tangled Up In Me
- Skye Sweetnam

You wanna know more, more, more about me
I’m the girl who’s kicking the coke machine
I’m the one that’s honking at you cuz I left late again

Hey! Hey! Hey!

Could you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don’t judge me tomorrow by the way I’m acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me

You wanna know more, more, more about me
Gotta know reverse phsychology
I’m the reason why you can’t get to sleep
I’m the girl you never get just quite what you see

Hey! Hey! Hey!

Could you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don’t judge me tomorrow by the way I’m acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me

You think that you know me
You think that I’m only
When everything I do is only to get tangled up in you
You wanna know more, more, more about me
I’m the girl that’s sweeping you off your feet

Hey! Hey! Hey!

Could you see I want you by the way I push you away Ya!
Don’t judge me tomorrow by the way I’m acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction, Ya!

Hey! Hey!

Get tangled up in me